Wednesday, April 11, 2012

I Am Demon

In "Demon of God" common demon visualization is challenged with phrases such as, "I am angel. / I am light. / I am demon . . . Demon of God" (Beorh 12).  Perhaps this demon, of the dark and mysterious nature of God, does God's work, destroying, cleaning up.  "Be not afraid," this demon says (Beorh 12).

There is a dark part within myself that I embrace even though I may have been told that, like a demon, it is bad.  It is the part that:

Destroys relationships to rebuild or abandon.
Guts a room of excess clutter. 
Leaves most of my possessions to maintain mobility.
Forms addictions, seeks addictions, withdraws from addictions (including emotional).
Writes about violence, death, fear. 
Reads about violence, death, fear.
Avoids my family. 
Likes isolation.
Gives up.
Enjoys danger.
Participates in drama.
Is pessimistic.
Is blunt. 
Gets angry.
Weeps until hollow. 

What experiences are needed to fully evolve, to get as close to ourselves and therefore as close to God as we possibly can?  How does His darkness enhance His light?